Dear Friend,
Please don't take this the wrong way but.. I'm avoiding you because... I thought I was falling for you. I don't want to make things awkward for us. You were my closest friend.. When people asked me if you were my best friend.. I don't easily respond to them it takes me time to respond..I always think before I answer them... I felt like I was friend zoned somehow. I always say we are "FRIENDS" because of my lousy excuse that I have so many best friends but I know for my self that I only have 3 Best friends. I can't consider you as my best friend because I was falling for you... I don't know how many months I didn't talk to you but it took me time to realize that I was really getting too attached to you, we were so closed that I thought I was falling for you I got confused by the mixed feeling I felt through the actions you shown to me. So basically I'm blaming you for being sweet to me that I got confused with this stupid emotions. I can't really control how I feel. but please don't say that I am ignoring you on the whole batch or to your friends.
Its making me the bad guy here tho i feel like i'm the victim of this whole thing. So yesterday our classmate asked me why am I avoiding you.. I told her I just want to. She then answered back immediately and said "Really?, Just tell us you got what you want from her" So I then realized that the story or rumors that were spreading or i don't know maybe just for her, I realized that the way she said it and how she looked at me she thought I was using you, but no i was just avoiding you and let this feeling fade away.. That's all why do people need to judge and they misunderstood everything and it leads to the point that i think that I'm that bad bitch that used someone just for my needs. I hate that feeling because I am not like that I am not a bad person..Okay? So when I got home yesterday I was sick I had a fever and I slept.
I cried first then I slept. So Friend,I am truly sorry for what have I done. I was just thinking about myself and it didn't cross my mind that you treated me as your best friend and you were hurt? I think. of what I have done. I'm sorry okay? please forgive me..I maybe smiling and all but I am not that happy because I know you are mad at me and that our classmates and your other friends think that I am a user because that's what I heard from a classmate..
Love,
S. xx
Its making me the bad guy here tho i feel like i'm the victim of this whole thing. So yesterday our classmate asked me why am I avoiding you.. I told her I just want to. She then answered back immediately and said "Really?, Just tell us you got what you want from her" So I then realized that the story or rumors that were spreading or i don't know maybe just for her, I realized that the way she said it and how she looked at me she thought I was using you, but no i was just avoiding you and let this feeling fade away.. That's all why do people need to judge and they misunderstood everything and it leads to the point that i think that I'm that bad bitch that used someone just for my needs. I hate that feeling because I am not like that I am not a bad person..Okay? So when I got home yesterday I was sick I had a fever and I slept.
I cried first then I slept. So Friend,I am truly sorry for what have I done. I was just thinking about myself and it didn't cross my mind that you treated me as your best friend and you were hurt? I think. of what I have done. I'm sorry okay? please forgive me..I maybe smiling and all but I am not that happy because I know you are mad at me and that our classmates and your other friends think that I am a user because that's what I heard from a classmate..
Love,
S. xx
